Baby it's cold outside~ January 10th, 2015

Don't be mad at me.

This is what happens when you're husband who isn't home a lot finally gets days off. TWO WHOLE DAYS OFF. We've been watching stuff. Playing video games. We went out for a lunch date :) Went to breakfast at Krispy Creme. If you've never had a Krispy Creme doughnut, you have not LIVED.

Really, that's all we've been doing. Just hanging out. He likes it when I watch him play Last of Us, we did that and he beat the whole thing. 

Bought some groceries at publix, target for dog food. oh yea, I finally got my hands on a glue gun! Blooming clock, here I come! For all those who don't know what a blooming clock is, its a clock with spoons as flower petals:

I've got the spoons, the clock, the spray paint, and the glue gun & sticks. LET'S DO THIS.

Sorry I haven't been around, its just I'm trying to spend as much time with Ben since we don't get much as it is. 

I'll do my best.

Peace and unicorns.

Love, Janie.

Horrified~ January 7th, 2015

What a horrifying world we live in

Yesterday was the usual. Clean, cook, take care of the dogs, but yesterday I started watching things.

I stumbled on this adviseTV media channel on Youtube. The host shows clips about what happens in the world, and then states his opinion. Now what caught my eye about the subject of the video was "HIV positive male knowingly spreads virus to 30 female students on campus and records it". As if THAT wasn't horrifying enough, I clicked on the video in my suggested box: Stephen Fry's HIV and me. 

Here, Stephen Fry explores the virus in Britain, and some parts of Africa(Ghana and another I can't remember). People are dying from the disease and in Africa, safe sex is not encouraged because of religion, and the government does not think this is a problem, so they don't invest in HIV medication, and the little that in donated by Britain and the USA, is distributed on a more first come, first served basis. Which means, the later you are, the faster you'll die. How horrific.

Now, Fry went back to Britain to go speak to some gay men, since they are, statistically, at a higher risk for the virus, about the virus itself. Then I heard the worst possible things, one could ever hear. THE WORST.

HIV negative gay men were seeking out HIV positive men, for some sort of party, where a number of positive men would ejaculate inside the negative man, put an anal plug inside of him to MAKE SURE he became positive. The process was called being "Pozzed up". I couldn't believe it. My breath literally hitched in my throat. 

HIV NEGATIVE GAY MEN WERE PURPOSELY TRYING TO BECOME HIV POSITIVE. I was horrified. Teriffied. Scared. Digusted. Nauseated. I couldn't believe it. I couldn't. There was no way this was happening. So I googled 'pozzed up'. I wanted to know. Was this limited to gay men? Was this a new thing? God I had been thankful at that point that Ben and I both took HIV and STD tests prior to even getting together. 

What I found...SHOOK ME TO MY CORE. There's a website dedicated to "Pozzing up". They call it "the gift" or the "bug". And that the fun of it all, was the "hot and sexy" risk they took. And that it turned them on. And they were looking to infect other people at these "parties":

"Searching for men to poz me up. Hit me up, I'm in Wisconsin."

"Give me the gift of the bug!"

And I kept thinking:

OH GOD. OH GOD. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. 

It's a real thing out there. And you all may be wondering, why post about this? You've heard it all. All the campaigns. All the 'Abstain from Sex' posters in school. But discovering this makes me frightful for my unborn children. What kind of world will they grow up in? A world where being HIV positive and sexually promiscuous is fine?

Don't get me wrong. There are many different scenarios for each HIV positive individual. Born with it, rape,the condom broke, even trusting someone you thought was good, but wasn't. It happens. But people actively seeking out HIV for "thrills" couldn't be more WRONG. 

Please, everyone out there. Before you and your partner decide to, I dunno, "get jiggy"?, please, please please get tested. And if you want throw yourself around town, please, do so safely. It's such a scary and, pardon my french, fucked up world right now that you never know who you're going to encounter, or what decision will completely change your life. 

Peace and blessings.

Love, Janie.

Oh so late >.< January 6, 2015

$5.99 boots!

Hey everyone. Sorry for the late blog post >.< I kinda got caught up in hanging out with Benji, and well...yknow. Lol, sorry.

Yesterday was pretty boring. I got these really cheap boots that I ordered for my little sister in Jamaica. $8.34 with shipping baby! There's NOWHERE you can get boots for that price. And the site I got them from is all sold out. That site usually gets unsold clothing for other merchants and sell them for less, which is why i like it :D they're new, just..left overs :). If you wanna know the site, please comment below and I will happily give it to you! They don't have the GREATEST things, but if you search, you'll find something decent. Also, if you want a picture of the boots, just tell me!

I also got a little light I ordered to start vlogging again(Look out the vlogs, they're coming soon!), But I don't like it either. I didn't pay a lot for it, so I'm not mad. I think I'll just spend the money and get a good light. 

We also got a Christmas card from my high school and currently one of my CLOSEST friends, Peter-Gay. Its late, but I still LOVE it! Its so nice to hear from old friends, it makes me feel good that they remember. 

The rest of the day was spent cleaning, doing laundry and waiting for Ben. Yknow, the usual. Then he came home a bit earlier than usual, just a couple minutes. But I savor those couple minutes. We ate that gross velveeta skillet thing, and i stir fried some yellow squash and zucchini. The velveeta skillet just tasted like...over-processed cheese. Yknow that taste when you buy the super cheap cheese in the sketchy supermarket? Never done that? I did once >.< In Jamaica. Was gross. Blech. Ben agreed too, luckily we only bought two because they were bogo at Publix.

Either way, we spent the night watching New girl and cuddling up and going to bed.

I spend all day waiting to spend 2 hours be with my husband. And even though I cant stand Tuesdays- Thurdays each week, I try to truly enjoy the little time we have on those days. 

Peace, Love and Unicorns!

Love, Janie.

January 5,2015

OMG I ALMOST MISSED IT- 11:30pm

I almost missed today's blog post! >.< I sorry! 

Hello one and all! Or no one who is reading this >.> today was a good day! Yesterday was a good one as well. We watched new girl, ben played Lords of the Fallen while I was on the phone with my step mom for 45 minutes, then back to new girl. Our lives are pretty boring nowadays. 

This morning our alarms didn't go off so ben was almost late for work :/ good thing he doesn't mind taking yakisoba to work, or he would've had to buy something. 

Today I spent a bit of time just taking care of myself: cutting my toenails, tweeting my eye brows, exfoliating my skin. It was nice :3 then I got to cleaning and watched another terrible horror movie until ben came home...EARLY! :)

We took our millions upon millions of bags of trash to the trash can down the street of the complex. I mean really, how did we accumulate so much trash? What are we eating? Either way, it was starting to pile up, and I was happy to get rid of it. 

Then we started to play the Last of Us, well I watched Ben play. 'Twas awesome. Then we paused and he actually helped me with dinner. He mashed potatoes, helped me prep veggies, and helped me with the gravy. Oh, he also helped me time the searing of each steak(they were cut pretty thin so one minute of each side would do). We watched new girl while we ate, then went back to playing the last of us.

I'm proud of him for only complaining twice while he helped me cook XD

Anyway, we're in bed, and he's waiting for me to turn the lamp off and cuddle. Yknow, super important marriage business. 

Love, Janie.

January 4th, 2014

TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY ~ 5;57pm

HHHHEEEEEYYYYYYY XD

So since last night wasn't so bad :) Ben came home a bit early, and we ate potato/butternut squash curry and rice. It is evident that we needed to go grocery shopping? LOL either way it was pretty delicious. THat's how life is these days, putting off grocery shopping days seem to be be frequent as Ben's schedule gets tighter.

I should learn how to take the bus and go myself but...I scared O.O Someone take the bus with me
>.<

He went to work today till 2, so he came home early and we went to Walmart and FINALLY got things to cook(yesssss I was tired of cooking yakisobas in the microwave however short that time was). I'm a cook. I think. Hell, I just like doing it. Then we went to publix and got bogo things(the only things we get at publix) and then to arby's for dinner. YUM ARBEHS XD

So here we are on the couch, like we usually do, watching New Girl.

Its the little things with him that I truly enjoy.

See you tomorrow.

Love, Janie

January 3, 2015

Nothing to report, Chief~ 8:10pm

Been a quiet day here at the Berrells. So we left off yesterday.

I was pretty depressed all day. With Ben working two jobs now, it's kind of difficult to get time with each other, and I was lonely. I can't be mad at him for working hard to provide for us, can I? With two jobs, things are so much easier. Bills get paid easier, we get things we want, but the price is definitely is time. 

I miss him. 

I miss laying around on the couch with our legs entwined, watching some show, usually Supernatural or something new we started (We just started New Girl and we love it). It's not like he's not trying to find a different job, he is, but we've all been through that, we get jobs we NEED, rarely the ones we WANT. And the jobs we want, someone's already doing it. I feel sorry for him, sometimes. He really wants to do audio engineering, which IS what he has a Bachelor's for, but again, all our dream jobs are basically taken. 

I DID get to spend some time with him today, so that was good. But he had to go to work again, so i has sads again :( But I know he's doing it for us, so I try my best to do what I can for him at home.

Now I'm watching a horror movie, watching the time go by, waiting for him to come home again. 

So, thats what's up for today. 

I'm thinking of going vegetarian for a month, sorta like a cleanse. What do you think? 

SO:

What did the cannibal get when he was late for the dinner party?

THE COLD SHOULDER!

well, *I* laughed.

Love, Janie :3

January 02, 2015 11:21am

January 02, 2015 11:21am

Before I start going on about my day so far, I think I'll set the format where I saw Hello, talk about what happened the day before, then reel back to the present. Seems pretty easy, if you're unable to follow what I'm saying, let me know in the comments.

Yesterday: Pretty much ordered over priced pizza and wings(then got a mini lecture for spending so much on pizza :\), watched bad shows and horror movies, cleaned the house, while trying to keep Dixie from constantly humping Kate. Now the humping was what got on my nerves all day. I had read online that when a female dog tries to hump another female, she was trying to assume dominance over the other, and if I saw this, I should promptly stop it. So I spent all day trying to protect my Katey-Kate from the insistent humping to no avail. Then Ben came home at 10:30(after working double shifts), took them outside and while he was wiping their paws off (they sleep in bed with us so their paws have to be clean), he noticed blood from Dixie. She was in heat and THAT'S why she was constantly humping Kate. I felt so bad, because i kept pushing her away from kate to stop what I thought was the need to dominate her. Either way, she slept in her crate with our old clothes to keep her warm.

This morning I let her out to go to the bathroom a bit, then made sure she drank some water, then put her back in. Kate kept acting crazy, wanting to stay by her crate, while Dixie kept barking because she was alone upstairs. So I put Kate in there with here and lo and behold, SILENCE. 

They seem to not want to be away from each other. It's adorable, to be honest. I brought them up some food, and they're asleep happily with each other.*cue best friend theme song here*

Now I'm eating my expensive pizza, watching a crappy horror movie, writing my to-do list for today. Clean this, clean that, hang clothes, write grocery list. Pretty mundane, but my life, only for now.

If you read my entire post about my dogs, God bless your heart lol. Sorry about that, its the best I've got.

I leave you with this:

What did the cannibal get when he was late for dinner?

My own 2015 Challenge.

And it begins.... January 01, 2015

So, for 20145(that's going to take some getting used to), I've decided to challenge myself by writing a Blog post everyday. I think it might be a challenge seeing as my days nowadays seem pretty much the same: Wake up. Makes Ben's lunch. Go back to sleep. Wake up again. get ready for the day. Let the dogs out. Clean the house. Take care of the dogs some more. Watch tv. Cook dinner. Hang out with Ben. Then sleep. There isn't much I really can do while my immigration paperwork is still being processed so, I do the best I can. 

I know, I know. My days are gloriously exciting.

Either way, I'll do my best to make it a good read for you.

Also, I did promise a post about my little DIY wedding MONTHS AGO, and I promise I'll give it to you if you're still interested. 

Still...is anyone out there, reading this? Or have you all given up on me? 

I hope not.

All my love.

~Janie