January 3, 2015

Nothing to report, Chief~ 8:10pm

Been a quiet day here at the Berrells. So we left off yesterday.

I was pretty depressed all day. With Ben working two jobs now, it's kind of difficult to get time with each other, and I was lonely. I can't be mad at him for working hard to provide for us, can I? With two jobs, things are so much easier. Bills get paid easier, we get things we want, but the price is definitely is time. 

I miss him. 

I miss laying around on the couch with our legs entwined, watching some show, usually Supernatural or something new we started (We just started New Girl and we love it). It's not like he's not trying to find a different job, he is, but we've all been through that, we get jobs we NEED, rarely the ones we WANT. And the jobs we want, someone's already doing it. I feel sorry for him, sometimes. He really wants to do audio engineering, which IS what he has a Bachelor's for, but again, all our dream jobs are basically taken. 

I DID get to spend some time with him today, so that was good. But he had to go to work again, so i has sads again :( But I know he's doing it for us, so I try my best to do what I can for him at home.

Now I'm watching a horror movie, watching the time go by, waiting for him to come home again. 

So, thats what's up for today. 

I'm thinking of going vegetarian for a month, sorta like a cleanse. What do you think? 

SO:

What did the cannibal get when he was late for the dinner party?

THE COLD SHOULDER!

well, *I* laughed.

Love, Janie :3

January 02, 2015 11:21am

January 02, 2015 11:21am

Before I start going on about my day so far, I think I'll set the format where I saw Hello, talk about what happened the day before, then reel back to the present. Seems pretty easy, if you're unable to follow what I'm saying, let me know in the comments.

Yesterday: Pretty much ordered over priced pizza and wings(then got a mini lecture for spending so much on pizza :\), watched bad shows and horror movies, cleaned the house, while trying to keep Dixie from constantly humping Kate. Now the humping was what got on my nerves all day. I had read online that when a female dog tries to hump another female, she was trying to assume dominance over the other, and if I saw this, I should promptly stop it. So I spent all day trying to protect my Katey-Kate from the insistent humping to no avail. Then Ben came home at 10:30(after working double shifts), took them outside and while he was wiping their paws off (they sleep in bed with us so their paws have to be clean), he noticed blood from Dixie. She was in heat and THAT'S why she was constantly humping Kate. I felt so bad, because i kept pushing her away from kate to stop what I thought was the need to dominate her. Either way, she slept in her crate with our old clothes to keep her warm.

This morning I let her out to go to the bathroom a bit, then made sure she drank some water, then put her back in. Kate kept acting crazy, wanting to stay by her crate, while Dixie kept barking because she was alone upstairs. So I put Kate in there with here and lo and behold, SILENCE. 

They seem to not want to be away from each other. It's adorable, to be honest. I brought them up some food, and they're asleep happily with each other.*cue best friend theme song here*

Now I'm eating my expensive pizza, watching a crappy horror movie, writing my to-do list for today. Clean this, clean that, hang clothes, write grocery list. Pretty mundane, but my life, only for now.

If you read my entire post about my dogs, God bless your heart lol. Sorry about that, its the best I've got.

I leave you with this:

What did the cannibal get when he was late for dinner?

My own 2015 Challenge.

And it begins.... January 01, 2015

So, for 20145(that's going to take some getting used to), I've decided to challenge myself by writing a Blog post everyday. I think it might be a challenge seeing as my days nowadays seem pretty much the same: Wake up. Makes Ben's lunch. Go back to sleep. Wake up again. get ready for the day. Let the dogs out. Clean the house. Take care of the dogs some more. Watch tv. Cook dinner. Hang out with Ben. Then sleep. There isn't much I really can do while my immigration paperwork is still being processed so, I do the best I can. 

I know, I know. My days are gloriously exciting.

Either way, I'll do my best to make it a good read for you.

Also, I did promise a post about my little DIY wedding MONTHS AGO, and I promise I'll give it to you if you're still interested. 

Still...is anyone out there, reading this? Or have you all given up on me? 

I hope not.

All my love.

~Janie

Update: January 6th, 2014

First off let me start by saying



Yes, yes... I wish you all happiness, luck and...more...happiness? :/

So, Let me update this blog. Actually, before I begin, I'll need to apologize for leaving this blog in the dark. I've been so busy with everything, i have completely ignored my poor blog. I mean, I haven't even updated Sooky Sooky! So here's my update. *knock knock* is anyone still there reading? o.O


College is NOT ova -.-

So when I went back to school to check on graduation dates, turns out one of the courses I took didn't really contribute any points to my GPA, and I had some free electives outstanding. For those of you who don't know what free electives are, they're just classes that you can take  to make up your GPA. The good news is that I get to take all the classes i've wanted to take for a while now. Like the Philosophy of Sex >.> Either way, thats the only UPSIDE of this whole thing. I have to pay the tuition myself, pay back student loans and all other things. So yea, that's it for school. >.>

Social life

I've been dating...AGAIN. So I know the last time I was telling you about a fella. Turns out that fella was a damn toad, and liked sleeping with strippers in the apartment downstairs. BLEH. To the men out there who choose to treat a good woman like shit, GO FUCK YOURSELF. Seriously. Like, up the butt. 

This guy, this guy Ben. Oh man...completely different from the type of guy i'm used to. And i can definitely see myself completely and utterly in love with him. Don't get me wrong, I dont know if I'm in love yet. But i can see it, and im open to it. So yea, we're taking it one day at a time.

Currently
Currently, I'm in Conyers, Georgia and it is FREEZING! Dear Jesus, why is it  just trying to pay my tuition and student loans back. ANNNDDD that's my financial situation. I feel like I've grown so much. I've decided to make decisions based on priorities and not things that I want.

So my question is, do you have any questions for me? I'll answer anything. except dirty ones. I aint telling you squat :P

Here's a recent photo:

HAVE A GREAT YEAR EVERYONE!

Update: July 11th, 2013

Today in Janie News.....

Allo allo everyone!

So, what's happening now....hmmmm lemme use the same format I did the last time:

School: School's done, but will be officially done with it on May 17th!
Age:23~ Yesterday was my birthday!
Hair Length & colour: Shoulder length and black & brown
Marital Status: Dating ^_^ (not a sure thing, simply taking it one day at a time)

College is ovaaaa!

Man, I am so happy to be done with school. And by "done" I mean, no longer attending but still doing exams and projects. I was getting real tired of UWI's shit, and now I no longer have to deal with it. I know I'm gonna miss hanging out with Nie, Gilly and Sasshy, but girls, we WILL see each other, and besides, if/when I get married, have a party, blah blah etc, you all have to be there! B[. 

Dating? Courting? >.> 

So, I've been...courting? a fella for about 2-3 months now and we've recently passed the friend stage and started interacting with each other like...ummm romantically? No hardcore "romance" if you get my drift, but still, romance is there. I quite like him, but i'm being careful with my heart. i don't wish to get caught up, not so soon anyway. lol he's quite a tall man, part chinese, part indian, insanely good looking and sweet. Here's the kicker, he's extremely patient...and I'm not. I'm hoping a bit of his patience will rub off on me and God knows I need to mellow out a bit. 

My 23 was the biggitty best yo!

Kay, so me, Maria and Jason went to Macau gaming & lounge. We got some vodka, rum, I got two birthday shots of flaming Bob Marleys and man was it good! Got some loaded fries which i recommend from Macau(real large pieces of bacon). I played some Poker and lost U_U. Played Roulette and lost U_U So i made the decision to go to Lucky 38 B[

Meh, the girls were alright....the ones on stage was utterly unattractive, and one couldn't dance to save her own rass life. SHe even tried to con me out of 1000. I wasnt fucking having it -_-

But this other was was good looking and could dance. So I got a birthday lap dance :D And then the stripper was like "I like you." i was like "I aint about that life girl >.>"

Then the police came and shut it down -_- laammmeee. We went home and slept our little hearts out. a good day indeed. 

Here's a recent photo:

BYYYEEEE GUUUYYSSSS!

Now I'm simply....Jane.

So, after a year long hiatus  I'm back....kind of. So here's a breakdown of my life and where I'm at now:

I AM NO LONGER INSANE JANE.

That girl is long gone and all that's left...is me.

School: Final Year of college(and very excited)
Age:22 (Just in case you weren't keeping track)
Hair Length & colour:(yes this is important!) Neck length and black & brown
Marital Status: Very single...and very ready to mingle.

So, final year of college. Very excited to be finished with college, and finally being able to find a decent enough job to move out of my mom's house and begin LIVING. Although I've experienced quite a bit of ups and downs from UWI, I do admit, with determination and a strongly written letter, you can possibly get ANYTHING out of them. Alas, I cannot say I will miss it. What happens after college, you ask? I don't know. What do I WANT to happen? Film school...directing amazing, unique movies that'll blow your mind...and I won't stop until I make this happen.

Being 22 years old doesn't really feel as different as being 20, or 21, really. I haven't changed much physically, other than the minor weight gain post-breakup. What can I say? for the past  *counts on fingers* 6 months cake, candy and cookies have been my best friends.

I HAVE made major changes emotionally and psychologically. I think and act different, I know, you don't have to tell me. I see it for myself. I'm less trusting of people, I'm more of a recluse now, I find myself no longer craving human contact as I used to. Although there are days when I yearn for someone to hold...anyway, no sob stories -_-

As for my hair cut that most of you have protested, I once said I would be over it like it was a dirty Vietnamese prostitute. I have now reached that stage -_- At the time, it was so...symbolic for me to cut it. Like cutting away all the negative things(my relationships both sibling and romantically...no, not incest -_-) and it meant, for me, a new start. To begin from nothing and grow again. And I have. I've grown so much. I make decisions differently, I choose things that are NECESSARY. Material things hold no meaning to me, and I must say, I'm quite happy with this new ideology I've adapted.

As for my marital status....well, let's just say, I'm ready to love again. So whoever he is, wherever he is, if he's even out there, I hope we find each other.

Here's a secret: i'm getting a job in the entertainment industry soon....and that's all i'm saying on the matter.

Alien out.

Oh, and if you're not my friend on Facebook, here's what I look like now:

Short hair was okay for a while...just grow back already >_<